Day 41

There were many questions I had..
But I kept it within me..
Or is it because I do not want to spoil any moment I have with you, and therefore I dare not ask?

Do you know that..
it was so nice hugging you..
it was so nice holding your hands..
it was so nice being hugged tightly by you..
it was so nice looking at you..
it was so nice touching your face..
it was so nice that i got to see you..
it was so nice that we hugged and talked..

When one of the Ls - loneliness is not possible for you - now that you always have her with you.. which of the other Ls increases?

Do you have the answer?

Day 41

Last Day..
And I still miss you very much..
But I know I can't tell you that..

Day 41

Everything is over..
It is over..

Really? Just like that..?

Day 40

I promise myself and to you..
Not to raise my sadness with you to make you feel worse..

I promise I will not..
Will you erase everything and re-start?

Day 41

Can't even remember the last time we have a normal conversation..
Just like those days when we can talk and laugh about everything under the sun..
And I know that's all my fault..
That everytime I am the one who spoilt a good normal conversation..

I wanted to tell you that..
My condo lift has now installed CCTV..
Also, want to tell you that there is new waffle product - and I want you to try it together with me..
..
...

Are you still blaming me?

Day 40

I hate me
I hate myself..
I hate ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 39

I cry and cry and cry and cry..

At airport, on the flight, back home..

And the first thing I do when I open my eyes in the morning..

How I wish my plane has clashed last night - then I dont need to go through this..